Lyrics to Crystals :
(Lets go lets go lets go.)

Red Rose I want to hold you close to my nose
Red red rose
Red Rose I want to hold you close to my nose
Red red rose

Now you can play your tricks on kittens
But I just need you now Im smitten
Now my heart is pitching
Now I got now
No one knows what to do with you now, red rose

(Chorus)
(n) Why fall in love
Its only happy faces
And why do you love
Now why do I fall in love
Its only happy faces (now)
Youre on the dance floor, exactly what you looking for
Nothing more, nothing more

Is this a trend your on your back again
On the curb once again
Fingers in the air
I can understand where we are
So far.
And we had the time of our lives
Im still sad
Kisses under the lights its a fad
And now Im dripping with what I had, with what I had

This world was created by a bunch of shit in outer space that formed together. Through billions of cycles of Earth's life, evolution took place and man was created. An animal...but we have so many feelings. I know all animals have feelings too, but humans are so much more then that. We "love" people. They are our "soul mate"...it doesnt make sense...can we really love people, or is this influenced by society and how people have lived throughout thousands of years. Wayyy back, it seemed love didn't mean much...because marriages were arranged, and usually based off family, money, and looks. Marriages just happened, even without knowing eachother. You grew to like them. Did people ever fall in love or marry for love then? It seemed like it was all for benfits. Now, it seems like everyone is "in love" with someone even without being together for very long, but they leave eachother because they don't feel it anymore...and they date people just to date people. They say not to marry to young, because you havent experinced much, and you don't know if you met the right person yet, or your marriage will end anyways, you need to date more, have sex more, and live more before deciding to be with someone for the rest of your life. Things have really changed over time. It's always old people who were not as sucessful with relationships who say things like that. Young people do tend to use the word love to often...but if they are marrying young, then they must truely love that person, and being young and niave, they tend to be more opitmisic, and they don't think about all the reasons to not get married...and they don't find someone based of benifits because as young adults, you don't have a set career, or a house, or money, or anything. it's like those are the relationships based off love more then anything eles. what ends these high school sweetheart relationships is the idea in their head as they grow up that they havent lived enough to be married....I just don't undersdtand why people can't live with someone...just one person for the rest of their life. When marriages were arranged for 15 year old kids back in midevil times, they never thought they hadn't lived....they only thought, I don't know this person, or I don't love this person...but they were stuck with them. Now we have the chance to fall in love and marry them, but thats not good enough. This really didn't make sense, but I just don't understand. Manybe marriage is stupid, houses are stupid, cars are stupid, and even clothes...and we should all run wild and free throughout the land....but seriously, I'm sick of everyone falling in love in and out with different people and always having some neagitive comment about other people who have and will always remain with one person. To me, I think if your dating someone new every two weeks, well...giving them a lable such a boyftriend/girlfriend...you have no life....not the people who have found someone they can be happy with for the rest of their life. I'd rather have someone always by my side supporting me, making me happy, and loving me... then someone new every other week to give me stds and leave before any real feelings can develop...now your sleeping around, been given titles, and when it comes to just relaxing at home, your alone...because of our stupid society. I think other countires know what I mean. They don't date until they are old enough...they only date people they already have feelings for, and when they know they are in love, they marry and are happy with that person...and they know they are happy...because they picked someone who can also be their best friend. This really...really didnt make much sense....scratch it...all of it... =.=

my life is good again finally!!! Alex is back home! He is moving to Brookline though D: I will try to see him as much as I can. I really missed this life! Spending everyday with Alex, my best friend and the love of my life! He is the only person I can stand being around for more then an hour without wanting to leave or hit from annoyance. School started I hate it so much! I don't even have Mandarin class!!! I was excited for this class all summer. I even prepared myself with some basic conversation. I think the school got rid of this class, but I will talk to the guidence counselour to check. I'm already getting sick of my new hair...I think I'm going to change it in a few months to a more natural looking ash blonde...my natural color...then I wont have to change it after that...and I can let it grow out and wear it in my natural curls. Never got to finish summer reading...even though the class is tmr..i think im going to just skip the class and read it tmr night in time for a retake test >< damn im so horrible...My mom is gone for the week in Las Vegas...so hopefully my sister willmake me dinner while she's gone or no food for me.